Focusing

I noticed that when my mind is elsewhere (usually work) I tend to block out everything else around me. This is a bad “skill” when I happen to be focusing on work during times when I’m around other people socially or just around the Home... Because people probably take my spaced-out-ness as something personal. Or, as someone told me recently, they think I’m irritated at them. I’m really not –- I’m probably just so consumed with thinking (since we all know, now, that I can’t actually “think”: I “feel”) about things, that I’m totally tripped off. I get very serious and sober when I’m actually pretending to think, so people probably think it’s personal -- I’m only generally silly when I’m not intent on something. :D

Also, I can’t focus on more than one thing at a time -- it’s sad, but true. In some ways, that’s a boon, because it means whatever I focus on (hopefully and ideally) gets my full attention. When I try to do more than one thing at a time, neither gets done well enough, so I might as well not even try to be that efficient. :) But, yeah, that also means I can be pretty distracted if I happen to be in focus-on-something-completely-different-from-what’s-going-on-around-you mode.

It’s a good lesson, though: I regularly have to remind myself to focus on people and what’s going on around me, when I’m not sitting at my desk. People deserve my full attention, it’s really the only way I can not risk giving the wrong impression (as far as being unconcerned and aloof goes) and it’s just all around wiser, for my brain type. :D Besides, of course, just giving them the respect they deserve. :)

Mental note made and taken –- should do better. For now.


Soccer is sooo exhausting when it's this hot, this humid, this dusty on the field (no rain, lately -- for a change) and one has been sweating like a... I was trying to think of something lady-like... a ladybug! :D

I'm now officially in on the every-Sunday 6:00-9:30 PM soccer game, yay! It's taking a small investment on everyone's part (maybe I should look for a sponsor, heheh), as we're renting an actual pitch (for a special deal), so everyone's contributing (about 20 of us, Family and non-Family -- Jay put out an ad and a few extras showed up). Those lights are super expensive. Initially, there wasn't any space for me, as the spots filled up quickly. I wasn't on the official invite list... I'm not much of a player -- and I'm 1 out of 3 girls, total (two of them being girlfriends of players, which really helps get them in, I'm sure, aherm). But it's fun and I can muddle through my defense thing. That game is definitely more intense and speedy than the Tuesday night game (which, incidentally, tonight, was mostly girls -- at least, it seemed that way, poor guys), so it's a little scary, because it's not a "girlie game" -- although it's also not a professional game -- but I guess challenges are good. One of the fellows who plays with us used to be on the national team in Taiwan. He's 57 and he plays everybody on that field! Well, he also knows how to conserve his energy and get around practically everyone. :) He also gives the girls direction, since, from what I understand (?), he coaches a girls' team, too (?). Anyway, I find it helpful, even though I have a really hard time focusing on what he's saying.--And, as usual, the guys seem to yell instructions more and much more loudly to the girls -- and to some of the guys, of course, very specific ones, haha.

The comfy bed summons... Sigh...